Epic Moments

Epic moments
Ancient memories
They have a way of coming
Always back to me
When I watch the shades
In a dark night outside
Or when I watch the sun fade
Into the water so bright
Then I realise how my heart
Is filled with so much
Love and care, but torn apart
By edges of broken trust
Whatever may heal
Leaves scars
Things I will always feel
Nomatter how far
Or long ago they might have been
My eyes can’t keep up
With all the ugliness I’ve seen
And been through non stop
They say life is tough
And nomatter how you try
It seems never enough
Nonetheless I’ll get by
And breathe through another day
Find another chance
Create my own space and way
To then again
Fall and fail
But never to quit
Until my last exhale
Until my fire is unlit
I will keep making memories
To learn from and leave behind
I will remember every piece
Every treasure that I find

.the darkside of the sun.

what do you know about
the dark side of the sun
hidden beneath a heat of clouds
I promise you that no one
has ever been there or seen that
too hard, too hot, too far, too bad
you wouldn’t even think to care to know
because you will never be able to go
don’t think you should or would even want
but I know you’re challenged by
the fact that it has never been done
but the further you try to fly
the deeper you allow yourself to fall
no reasons for how or why
cause don’t we all
just love the thought of danger
the risk of meeting a stranger
but of course to never trust
cause we’re just addicted to the rush
and all that could happen
what should not but probably will
how much we let in
and enjoy the pieces of ourselves to spill
to never recollect
never care what’s next
and never come back to it
never let show
our purest or truest
it’s a waste, a shame
worth for nothing to know
but still we are the same
and you do it just like me
innocent covers to blow
will it ever change?
unlikely
cause those sad games
give breathing flavor
and only to win time
we do each other a favor
pretending to seek
never caring to find
until that darkside meets
and we roll back into our minds
then it’s history within a week
those memories never to repeat
happy we will never become
not like this
but why care over the outcome
when the real bliss
of these rays of sun
always overshine the dark side
why care what’s on the inside
if we keep it on the surface
nothing can ever hurt us

Control.

memories no longer matter
everything i now do
is only for the better
with or without you

i no longer care
or wait to expect for
you to be there
i’m looking for more

than you could ever give
i have more of me
than you allow me to live
we will never be

like we never really were
i’m over us
done with who you are
so obvious

manipulating me into
guilt and insecurity
this love wasn’t true
nothing like trust or purity

and now you’re losing
i’m taking back control
i’m not for your amusement
in my fate lays a greater role

Forward.

i’m rising to the sky
blending with the blue
levitating up high
not ever thinking of you

cause you don’t exist
in the way i thought you would
no more temptation to resist
no longer caring for the good

just try to hold my own
any and only way i know how
is by dealing with it alone
there’s no space for you now

i’m letting go all anger and hate
and everything that used to hurt
for turning back time it’s too late
and above all it’s not even worth

the trouble and the endless energy
got other things to focus on
things that stimulate and benefit me
get me forward to what i want

seeking and striving for growth
cut loose all strings that hold me back
better and easier for us both
nothing will throw me again off track

Blind

Don’t take me for a challenge.. You can never win..
Because it’s not a game
When the time comes, that you realize this..
Tell me the same

Convince me it’s true
Cause I can’t seperate manipulation from you
You’re intentions never shine through
Can’t trust, can’t drop my guard
The walls cover all except my eyes
So whatever it is you’re lookin for
Whatever lays behind this disguise
That is where you’ll find
That is where you can make me blind
And if you have to take control
Do it first before the fall