blade

Now I will

~ Gita ~ Leave a comment

My heart is too widely open
I could be crouched down with a blade pressed to my skin
But if someone would then and there need me, I’d forget all the hate and hurt, just for them, temporarily
To have it waiting for me when I return to myself

I will still, help, love, care
Even if I can’t do any of those for myself
My heart is too widely open
But the love flows one way
Because I don’t know how to receive
I’m not blaming anyone else
It’s not self pity either

Just a reality I either have to get used to
Or find a way to change
But what makes me think, that after 15 years of trying
Now I will succeed?

Silent Revenge

~ Gita ~ Leave a comment

I should’ve ragged the blade through your face
When I had the chance for it
When you laid asleep next to me
Before you could fire your rage against me

Next time you dare to care to come around
I got a surprise, I promise
You won’t see it coming
When you try to act up or hurt me again

I got a bullet here waiting
With your initials on it
My revenge is silent and motionless
Like when your body falls
Emotionless

And I will never regret it
Because it’s only justice
My way to deal with
What you did