Breaker of all my hearts
You forced me to live in confinements of hurt
You suffocated me in stress and drowned me in my own depression
You strangled me with anxiety and throttled me with insecurity
You cut my skin with neglect and abandonment
You never understood me and you never cared to try
You’ll never understand me and I’ll never know why
You pretended to love me
While you intended to kill me
By giving me all of you
Building me up with all you have
Letting me shine with light I borrowed from you
But it was never mine to have
I belong to the darkness
And you could never respect that
So you decided to break off every piece of what you gave me
Until bit by bit I crumbled back to nothingness
Hoping I would mean less to you
Expecting me to choke in my own worthlessness
Now here we are, it’s all over, there’s nothing left
How does it feel? Are you satisfied? Can we be done now? Done with the hurt and the anger, the unforgiving misunderstanding, the unwillingness, the pride and ego…you broke me to build yourself, because you were afraid I’d break you like I broke myself. Because you think I’m stronger than you. That’s why you don’t love me, truly. You fear me.
insecurity
Control.
memories no longer matter
everything i now do
is only for the better
with or without you
i no longer care
or wait to expect for
you to be there
i’m looking for more
than you could ever give
i have more of me
than you allow me to live
we will never be
like we never really were
i’m over us
done with who you are
so obvious
manipulating me into
guilt and insecurity
this love wasn’t true
nothing like trust or purity
and now you’re losing
i’m taking back control
i’m not for your amusement
in my fate lays a greater role